Friday, February 18, 2011

One year Later

Well it has been a year. Well tomorrow it will be a year since Dad fell. So many things have changed.
Dad is doing well, and I am happy to celebrate the Year mark. One of the classes I had to attend last year for my continuing education, gave a statistic that 1 in 3 senior's that has a fall resulting in Hospitalization pass away with in a year from the fall.
I miss my job, and my friends from work. I still talk to and see them once in a while, but it isn't like I am there everyday. I am trying to get into a routine of things, and most of the time it works. However, I have learned that since I no longer have to do 5 million things at once, I can't remember anything. I have to write EVERYTHING down, or else I will forget.
I never wanted to be a housewife. It was never in my DNA to be happy at home. I have yet to find a hobby, other than reading, and I am not sure what I want to do. I don't have the crafty talent that my Mom did, and I don't have talents for drawing or painting. I have tried my hand at writing but I haven't been inspired by a story yet.
Most day's are spent in a boring routine. However I am happy about that. I don't miss the stress and worry of Dad being in the hospital, and rehab center's.
I look forward to race season, and all that comes with it, and I do like the fact that Cody and I have more time on the weekends to do fun stuff, since I am doing the chore stuff during the week. I also like the fact that we can race a little bit more since we both don't have to worry about time off, and with Cody's job he can work any hours to get his 40 hours a week.
I just wish I could do more to get us ready for the race season. We have so much to do still, and we are rapidly running out of time.
This is one year that has been a rollercoaster of up's and down's and in's and out's. However it is a year that I am grateful of wonderful friends who have done so much for us. I owe a big thanks to so many who have helped out, Dad sitting, listening to me vent, being there when I was at my wits end, and keeping me propped up during the hardest times.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Summer where are you????

I am so irritated!!!!! Winter has been hard for me. No escapes to look forward too,,, nothing to break up the same ol' same ol'. I am not complaining that everyone is healthy. I am very grateful that there is no major upheaval going on. However every little thing is irritating the shit out of me. Sis is being a big old pain in the ass. She is pushing buttons and not listening, which is normal, but it is pissing me off more than usual.
Dad is whining about little things and it is making me want to snap at him. I don't think he is doing it intentionally. At least I hope not. And it is little stupid things. Like every time I dish up his dinner,,, he has to go to the bathroom at that exact moment. I can't eat my dinner until he is settled and has taken one of his med's because it has to be refrigerated. So I have to wait until he is done taking that med to put in away. And it seems like it is every night. And for some freaking reason this week his oxygen cord has been an issue. It hasn't been an issue for months,, but all the sudden this week he is getting it caught in the wheel's of the walker, or it is getting tangled up and knotted, and when he hollers for help his voice totally grates on my nerves. I understand he can't do it on his own, but does he have to sound like a whinny two year old????? He has also been whining about his feet. He has a big callous on each foot, but he is acting like it is a life and death issue. We set up an appointment with the foot doctor, but he is making it into a huge issue.
I know that I have cabin fever, and I am looking forward to race season. But we have soooooooo much work to do before we are ready and we are very quickly running out of time. I also wish that the weather was just a little bit better so I could spend more time outside. I need to do a lot of work in the yard, and I am chomping at the bit to have it done. Well enough venting. Hopefully it will prevent an all out meltdown.